Tuesday, May 27, 2008

XOXO Gossip Boy (Part V of V)

As I said, I’m new at this world. And I suppose, I have lots to learn.

Things that I'm not sure I want to learn.

One, I can’t understand how some of them think about relationships. How can something so precious to me be just as ordinary to some? How can something so valuable in this life as I think it is be not as valuable to others? Don't get me wrong, I am not judging, I am merely asking, hoping to understand.

Two, how can a simple case of miscommunication lead to full-blown arguments in the presence of people who they barely know? A simple and quiet talk would have been fine and would have straighten up the issues entirely. But to lead to face slapping and all? I don’t get that.

Three, how can something so innocent lead to issues which may eventually lead to another set of arguments? How can nothing lead to something which may lead to something else? How come trust in a relationship seem to have played merely a minor role between the lovers? Again, to this point, I am at a total loss.

Argh, I’m so confused. Do I really know what I’m getting myself into? Or more important than that, do I really want to get myself into that? I have been happy and content with my life until I started exploring a world other than my own. Well, I got what I was looking for, but was it the outcome I was hoping for?

Many many people have said before, don’t let your friends choose you, you choose your friends. So my question now is this, did I let this new set of people choose me or have I chosen them?

I have no idea. I don’t know.

Fortunately, another house party is coming up. And I’d reserve judgment until then.

So until the next time, you know you love me, XOXO, Gossip Boy.

2 comments:

MakMak said...

Hey. Just read through your five-parter story.

I'm not claiming to be an expert but let me share my dollar's worth of thoughts (nde two cents. ehehe):

Your arguments presupposes that everyone thinks similarly. Everything in this world is relative (except for the truth) so what you see as either black or white can be a neon for someone else. Ikaw, ako, sila - magkakaiba tayo.

"Do you really know what you're getting yourself into?"

I think you do. And like what you've said, I think you just weren't expecting this kind of outcome.

And, thanks for this reminder: "don't let your friends choose you, you choose your friends." I like it.

Anonymous said...

Hey makmak, thanks for reading my blog. Let me just share few more points to ponder on.

There is no question that we all think differently. After all, that's what makes us human, right? But no matter how different our views and perspectives are, the concept of right and wrong remains constant, or at least it should be.

I cannot take the fact that what is regarded as a general principle of right and wrong does not seem to take a stand in the lives of these new people. That's what bums me out.

As for me getting myself into this new thing, let me clarify. I know what the door looks like, I'm familiar with the facade. But I do not know what happens inside. This kind of outcome has always been a possibility that I recognize, but how it happened, the way events unfolded, is what prompted me to ask the question. Do I really know what I'm getting myself into?

After all, I have only seen the cover, and I'm still just reading the book.

;p