What happens when you feel your heart breaking into a million pieces and you feel there is nothing you can do to thwart it? When you know you are walking into a known cliff and you cannot, for the life of you, see how deep it is? How often do you need to witness instances that you know will hurt you before you actually turn your back to curb more hurt?
Further, what if the assurance that you receive from the beginning no longer gives you comfort and ease? What if only hearing those three little words will rest your heart, and yet, it is never said, and will not be forthcoming anytime soon? And you saying those words instead will lead that person away forever?
What happens when, amidst all these confusion, you question yourself once more? Your worth, your relevance, your importance? How will you hold up when you continuously measure yourself against others to whom you get tired of being compared?
Will you stick around and see if the road would eventually lead to a better way?
Or would you, just, walk away?
3 comments:
"...And you saying those words instead will lead that person away forever?"
-this part is so sad...
-though i don't know anything therapeutic to say about your dilemma, i do sympathize...
-hope that you make a decision that'll lead you to the right path.
Self-worth, Jel. You know your worth, and you've always known it. Let no one--NO ONE-- make you question how worthy, how relevant, how important you are.
Control your life. There is no reason to get hurt when you can avoid the hurt. Do not place yourself in situations where you will be hurt. If you can't control the situation, prepare your heart.
I've always known you to be strong. You will survive this because you are Jeland, because you are good.
Sensei Jery: I think I have, though the ball still isn't on my side of the court. :p Thanks. ;p
Ker: Hehe, thanks. I just needed to be reminded from time to time. ;p
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