Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Hopes

jeez. im so not freakin cut out for this. this freakin new world i've been trying to get into (not the legal profession, mind you, hehe) is so much more than i can handle. one moment, it feels like heaven; the next feels like shit. jealousy rules the world, and non-commitment permeates the players. argh. what have i ever done to deserve this? from one failed attempt to the next, i feel like i'm losing sanity and stability. i wonder what will happen if i quit altogether. i wonder what will become of me if i revert to my old life. will it be simpler and happier? or is staying and pushing forward the only way to go? hay. life. its complexity is infinitely more than i can even try to understand. i just hope i survive. i just hope i see the light soon. i just hope.

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