A Brighter Future

Sometimes, when melancholy grips you, it grips you like it's the end of the world. Sometimes, when you think of the good things you've lost, you lose the reason and the sense why you lost the good things in the first place. All is left in the realm of conjecture, of the what ifs.

Until you focus and try to remember the well-thought of logic behind the actions. Until the associated aches and stress once more comes to fore.

Then you begin the process again. You filter out the what ifs, and hold on to the facts. Cold and hard. Like a splash of cold water in a sleeping facade.

So you realize the eventuality. The reality. And the future.

Which should start in the now. Right here. At this moment. To forget the less worthy lessons of the past, and to continue the legacy of the right.

By then, you will have realized how the world works. How it moves on despite the seemingly insurmountable suffering. And that as a result thereof, you are a better person.

And it's a brighter future.

Twisted

Passing by the City of Tagbilaran in Bohol reminded me so much of my hometown. The way I used to see it. In the eyes of a child taking everyting in, acknowledging every wonder that each story brings.

I have often told myself, I'm never going back to San Pablo. I can't work in the suburbs when the whole city is waiting for me to seize every moment. But somehow, being in a place free from the noise pollution, free from neon lights that obstruct our vision of the stars, somehow, being here makes me rethink my decisions.

Perhaps, I do need to return to San Pablo. If only to quiet my restless soul. If only to find myself once more.

Perhaps, Bohol is there to unknot my twisted soul. So that, once and for all, I'll see the path where I need to go.

Beej

Sa bawat pag-ikot ng ating buhay
May oras na tayo'y kailangang maghiwalay
Puso'y lumaban man, walang magagawa
Saan pa, kailan ka muling mahahagkan

Kulang man sa 'tin itong sandali
Alam ko na tayo'y magkikitang muli
Hangga't may pag-asa pa na haharapin
Ikaw lang ang mamahalin

Puso'y lumaban man walang magagawa
Saan pa, kailan ka muling mahahagkan

Kulang man sa 'tin itong sandali
Alam ko na tayo'y magkikitang muli
Hangga't may umaga pa na haharapin
Ikaw lang ang mamahalin

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Dumating ka nung kailangang-kailangan kita. Dumating ka para muling ipakita sakin kung gaano katamis ang magmahal at ang mahalin nang buong buo. Yung pagmamahal na hindi namimili ng panahon at pagkakataon. Yung hindi nagsasawa at nagsisinungaling.

Ngayong kinailangan mong umalis, nangangako ako: hihintayin kita. Hanggang sa panahong gusto mo akong uwian, mananatiling nandito ako.

Kulang man sa 'tin ang mga sandaling nagkasama tayo, alam ko, hangga't mahal mo ako,

ikaw lang ang aking mamahalin.