battles won and lost

there are battles won, there are battles lost. this time, i lost. valid as my argument may be, there are just some things bigger than others. no matter how hard it is to accept an infraction, the fact remains that the over-all scenario and place of things far outweigh a singular important event. for after all, the totality of what is is what ultimately counts. it is the sum of the whole, all the slices of the pie, the bundle of twigs. it is the whole plethora of the beautiful less the not that yields the remainder as a binding testimony of that which has been uselfishly shared. and to that, no one horrendous experience, no matter how great or terrible, can measure up to. thus, as i've said, i lost. the good taken with the bad still comes short of being bad. without resorting to numbers and counting, the best is present and far outweighs the worst. and to that, i am totally lost, and beaten,

and sad.

life.