Atenista ako

Fine, late entry na kung late entry. Pero ngayong panahong 'to, walang makatatanggi, ang sarap maging Atenista!!! Woohoo!!! Mainggit na lahat ng maiinggit! ;p

Ideas in Love

Once, when I was still in college, my very close friend told me that I might have just been in love with the idea of being in love when I decided to plunge into my very first relationship. In hindsight, I think she was right. But I know I wasn't just that. I was also in love. And I have proven that over and over again as months became years, as my relationship succeeded that of any friend we've ever known, as I have grown into the relationship just as my significant other had. And since then, I never stopped growing. I never stopped loving. 

As I moved on from one relationship to the next, it was as if I was in a roller coaster ride, both excited and exhilarated, but at the same time, never forgetting that it's a rush that's meant to be enjoyed only for a short time. Because after being in love, after experiencing those chills down the spine, the more difficult question of staying in love comes in.

And that's why I am writing this entry. By history, I never had a problem with that. I have always stood by my decision to love. But since I broke up with my most recent ex six months ago, since I have been single for the longest time since I was 20, I have had this weird sense of self.

Now, I fall deeply in love in just a short span of time. Colors become brighter just like that. The world becomes a better place to live in.

But it doesn't last.

Just as suddenly, the colors lose their hue. The world becomes dull. The almost pathetic drooling in love boy resumes being the pragmatic lawyer that he is. 

And it makes me wonder. Is it just me? Or is it that I still haven't found the right one again? Is it my lifestyle now, or just the style that I handle my relationship? Am I really ready to love, or am I once more just in love with the idea of being in love?

Fontana

On my way to Fontana for the first time an hour from now. Unfortunately, not to have fun, but to work. And not for the whole weekend, but until tomorrow only. Nonetheless, I'm excited. If only I weren't feeling sick today. If only I haven't taken in too much drugs for my age today. If only I weren't heading off to Batangas on Friday. Hayz. Some things just couldn't be perfect. But hey, who's complaining? I'm getting paid anyway, right? Right.

Anyway, partying is just a couple of nights away. I think I could suck it up 'til then. Hehe ;p

Not Now

So I find myself staring at my laptop once more. The plans of working today has gone down the drain because the unplanned drinking of last night left me weak and downright unproductive. As usual. Hmm, this is slowly becoming a weekly routine. I dunno if I should be glad or alarmed. But since I'm still liking it, perhaps I should reserve my musings for another day. 

Yep, for another day.

Another Personality Test

I used to be an INFJ in college; and I've come a long way since then. ;p

Your result for The LONG Scientific Personality Test...

ESTJ-The Supervisor

You scored 73% I to E, 79% N to S, 62% F to T,  and 26% J to P!

   

Your type is known as the supervisor, as you are not hesitant to give your stamp of approval on others - or tell them how they are lacking if they are.  You are surprised when others don't seem grateful that you have set them straight.  Your type also belongs to the larger group called guardians.  Experience is what matters to you, not experimentation or conjecture.  You often take a lead role in the many groups and organizations you belong to.  You worry a great deal about society falling apart, morality degrading, and what the world is coming to.  You share your personality type with 10% of the population.

As a romantic partner, you communicate very clearly your strong opinions so your partner always knows where they stand.  You are dependable, responsible, and rock solid.  You can be rather infexible about giving up any control and insist on keeping a schedule, although you have great energy and enthusiam for planned adventures.  You have difficulty seeing other's points of view and your biggest downfall in a relationship is dismissing your partner's feelings as illogical.  You feel most appreciated for being trustworthy, efficient, and productive.  You wish to be thanked tangibly for the ways you keep your lives on track.

Your group summary:  Guardians (SJ)

Your Type Summary:  ESTJ

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