the funny thing about not having an internet connection for a while is that i terribly miss it. while it's there, i'd get bored visiting the same old sites i go to (multiply, friendster, gmail, and the occasional blogs), yet, once i lose it (the connection), it's as if i were totally detached from the civilized world--thank goodness for my mobile phone, for it more or less covers that sense of solitude i normally feel not having to see my favorite, though dull, i must add, sites. anyway, so the few weeks that i've been out of the loop so to speak really made me crave for the internet. but lo and behold, true to my form, after a couple of hours doodling around, i am now, again, bored as hell.
tsk tsk.
i suppose this is a manifestation of an internal system far more complex than just becoming bored. am i, in all my eccentricities, just the same as anybody else? wanting that which isn't there? craving, not just for the unknown, but for the known no matter how sure i am of the momentary pleasure that it brings?
in the same vein, if i am like this, and so is everyone else, does it mean that everything around us is just another side of the same evil crystal ball? i mean, is gloria's fervent desire to stay in power just the same as my craving for the internet? is the fact that she knows that she can wield the sword of the executive only for so long equivalent to my yearning for the information superhighway?
i hope not. for if it is, nothing can be more satisfying than fighting the battle against her. a thief wouldn't want another thief in power, right?
for my sake, i hope not.
